Babies and Rings

There is nothing like turning 30 to turn every ordinary conversations into catalysts for introspection and self doubt. Babies. Music career. Yup. They don't mix. I had a random conversation with a stranger in the lunchroom about this topic. Am I good enough to attain a level of success that will apease my future reget over a childless life. Ugh!! Big Big Big decisions. And it's true. Men can choose a young fertile women and do the deed when they are 60, so the issue is not as absolute as it is with women.

Anyhow, I think I have made up my mind. No bun in the oven for this lass.

My Second Hand Life

i opened the upstairs closet door. you know the kind. jammed in to the front entrance hall (if you can call it a hall) fits a few jackets and 2, 12 packs of emptys that you keep swearing you are going to take back to the depot until they multiply to 8 12 packs and you no loger can close the door and you have to step over them to find your shoes. tonight the closet when opens reaks of bounce sheets. smells pretty. unlike the usual beer bottle and old paint can smell.

appartment liife. soap and static free sheets liive upstairs by the door. i am new to this life. small things amuse me.